Monday, October 11, 2004

confused n dejected

once again, i m getting all confused again. at 1 moment, i thought all was coming back again. e nex moment, i felt its all gone again. although she said, she was looking for someone who can understand that her love for god is greater than her love for e person, i said i cld understand e feeling n i will not question her decision. but now, i m thinking otherwise. 3 days of not talking to her suddenly sets me n her apart again. now i m thinking, y shld we have bumped into each other on that day? is this god's will that we r to meet again after 3yrs? or is this another of god's game to fool me again? if this is all but a game, does anyone has a cheat code to share so i can win this game? i really need this cheat code...sigh... wldnt it better that we did not meet at all?

jason jason. y cant u always treasure wat is in frnt of u n only to know how precious it is to u only when it became lost? when will u ever learn? u have so many chances thrown at u. but u always let it go cos u want to find a better one . e truth is, all that came along has been a good one. its u who let it go. someone once told u that true love is found when u love e person with all yr heart. n that is true love. only when u decide to love 1 with all yr heart, thats yr true love. sigh...i m a jerk. no question bout it. zhenting has loved me with all her heart, but i disappointed her. liyan has done it too, but i disappointed her too. y m i like this? always letting go of wats in frnt of me searching of a better 1? 2 perfect chances has came along n i decide to let it go. when will i ever learn to b satisfied with wat i have n let live with it? when?

Friday, October 08, 2004

exorcised.....

back again. surprised huh? ok. i shall start.

after sch, met up with mj for a movie. just me n her. we managed to catch exorcist. it was a nice film. it tells of how did it all happen in e exorcist movie. this was e prequel.

this film was nicely shot n it explains very clearly how did e evil started n how did father marion( was this his name?) initially a priest during e world war 2 denounce his priesthood after some incident he experienced n finally how he ended up finding back his faith n his trust in god again. overall, i wld give it 4 stars out of 5...horror wise, it is comparable to its original exorcist although in e original exorcist, e highlight of e show was e head turning part. in this prequel, e highlight wld b e devil's control over man, causing man to turn against thmselves n fight amongst each other. u will have to catch it to understand e show. now i have a sudden urge to get e original uncut dvd version...who has it? pls lend me??

ok. enough of digression. back to my date with mj. yah. after e movie, we went to dinner at yoshi. yet again...wat to do? she likes it. :) did some shopping with her after dinner where i chose a nice pair of earring for her. she will post it up in her blog ltr i guess. yeapz. we walked slowly over to heeren n did some window shopping n ended up sitting dwn behind somerset mrt n talked bout e past. both of us was like wondering how did we ended up losing touch for 3yrs. nwat actuall triggered it. it was such a hard task that we actually gave up. we only manage tio decipher 1yr out of e 2 yrs. oh well, since we cant remember it, might as well forget it? wat matter most now is that we treasure e times we have ahead, n i swear to everyone out there, i will not leave her without a word like wat happened 3yrs ago. will b with her now n forever.

i think thats about wat happened 2dae. its time i went back to my project. suppose to hand up my share of work 2mrw for discussion n i have yet to get started..looks like i can forget bout sleeping 2night. sigh... :( i need sleep. sigh. no slp + aint gona see her for e weekend cos she will b busy with church + her gd frd's bdae. i will most prob get to see mj again on monday? hopefully i get to see her provided she is not bombarded with lots of work when she starts sch on monday...

thats all...ciao~ miss ya mj...

Thursday, October 07, 2004

its a thursday....

oh well, here i m whinning b4 i take my lunch n headed to sch.

mayb i shld start with yesterdae? here it goes...

started out my dae with going dwn to nyp returning thinesh his notes back to him. didnt realise nyp was so big till i started sweating. or mayb e mrt staion was too far frm e sch or e weather was too hot or i was rushing for time..thats way. unlike sp, where e mrt station is juz opp my block. juz exit e sch gate n there u r..our beloved DOVER station. hahaa....

yeapz. after tad went dwn to adelphi to collect my first aid card. e pic looks kinda weird cos e picture is like smallafied(wat english was that? watever..as long as u get e meaning) so, my face was pretty squeezed up. but still, it looks nice. cos u know y? its me...wahahahz...thn while on e way to city hall, wen hao called me n said e free access is cancelled cos we cld actually do e prac on fri during lab itself as e assesment is next fridae. ok. so i have e whole weds free again alone? it seems tat every weds i wld b alone for a reason or so. i do not know y. anyway, after collecting e card, i headed dwn to ps. yes ps. yet again. dont i have other places to go? went to office, found stephen there n gave him my availability for this weekend.

feeling bored, i called several ppl up to ask if they wana watch movie with me, sadly, none of thm r free, thn a miracle happened. while i was wasting my time away at e arcade nex door, alex called n said he was at bk with weijie. so, went dwn n looked for thm. we decided to watch sex is zero. in e middle of e show, meijia messaged me n said she did not go for her church class. so, i was like.. -.-" .. y didnt she tell me earlier so we cld have watched exorcist? anyway, its ok. yeahz. she was in starbucks n asked if i have a pencil n ruler? once again i was like.. -.-" .. anway, went to get a ruler for her n met her in starbucks....slacked with her till about 7++ when her frd came along n we headed off to yoshi for dinner. didnt eat cos i was too broke....stupid gv. mixed up my pay n me? ended up having to eat grass for e entire oct...oh well...after dinner, we went to walk ard ps. n i realise, mj got this sunshine girl kind of pattern cos while looking at clothes, i realise there r lots of clothes that dont suit her. yeah. so my conclusion is, she still looks better in surf shorts n t-shirts. continued walking till all the shops r closed n we went off to slack at basement 2 for awhile b4 heading home.

basically thats wat happened for me on weds. nothing special..e only special thing was, i met up with meijia after like 3yrs? cos 3yrs ago, somehow i pissed her off n i was blacklisted by her for 3yrs. n i asked her yesterdae y? she said she did not know y. i was like... -.-" ...anyway, it dosent matter now. now we r back as friends. n i cldnt ask for more...ok. i shall end here...time for lunch, bathe n head off to sch...boring dae...unless some miracle happen again..hahaz