sick...

well, didnt go to sch 2dae..kinda overslpt...effects of e medicine....woke up to a super dry throat...dmn un-comfy....had a weid drea,. dreamt that i became so breathless that ic ant even suck e drink frm e straw...hahahz....will i become so weak? dunthink so right?

anyway, there has been a gd news regarding heejung n my buddy...hahahz...yeahz...finally i see some progress...all thanks to me? lol..now, seeing both of thm finally progressing, i cant help but think when will it b my turn? mel was saying it too...now that e both of thm r gona get together, e both of us will b left alone....sigh. 3 muskateers now left with 2. n if either 1 of us gets attached too, thats e end of it...hahahz....we will b so engaged in our rlatiuonship that we hardly have time foe each other. so i guess this is e kind of sacrifice one must face. oh well, we will know when e day comes...

i guess tis is all i have to say 2dae....hopefully i will get better 2mrw....

The Only Easy Day was Yesterdae

sick cat

i m falling sick...really sick...headache n flu...geez...too much of late nights...guess i need to re-tune my body clock...

i dun how shall i start this...but ya. i m helping my buddy with this ger...their problem is kinda hard to explain, i also dun feel like explaining...hahaz..

its just that being their middleman makes me wonder,how much r u willing to give up for e person u claim that u love? in e course of their 'relationship' i have heard lots of problems betweent thm, n only recently, i have been offering advices on both sides. its very hard to remain a neutral party at times. cos i have to keep in mind that both r my friends, n somemore, one of thm is my buddy since sec 1. so, i cant afford to hurt either party. sometimes, i feel like bursting not as if i dun have problems on my own to deal with. oh well, all seems well for e moment. juz hung on with her. everything seems fine for e moment...n i hope i dun get any smses tmrw frm any side anymore....i need a rest!!!! haz....pls spare a thought for my phone bill...

haiz. i always seem to b able to help ppl on their relationship problems, but it seems that, i cant settle my own. wat is this..i think i shall give e thought of getting attached anytime soon..seeing thm like this is giving me headaches bout relationship...

oh well...guess this life huh? i really do hope that they can get together. i really do hope. lets pray for e two of thm ya...

Love me for a reason. Let e reason be Love

food for thought.

The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began,
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with weary feet,
Until it joins some larger way,
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.-LOTR

HELP!!!!!!

damn it! its one of those days again. i m starting to think alot. i m starting to b suspicious! I NEED HELP!!!! I M INTO MY MOODSWINGS AGAIN!!!!!!!! damn it...i cldnt believe it actually came...ya. it did. n i think its gona blow things up. cos i actually messaged somethings that r not meant to b said....die...save me frm e bottomless pit pls...sigh...

mayb gerald is right, i shldnt think so much. juz stay cool n relax. everything will b fine. i hope so too.

ended my day with a sigh. how terrible.

Tomorrow will be a better day

bored...

i m bored in class...i duno wat to do...geez..digital system...doin prac in e cadcam lab...monitor is at least 21inch....big sia...like machiam i m blind like that. n yes...i m really really really bored....no 1 wans to watch chucky with me...how sad...jolyn said she is lazy to dae. so, well, i guess really have to wait till fri b4 i see her..sad sad sad...boooo....

anyway, i m damn nua in class now...finished half of prac 5. n gona leave it till next week to finish up e other half. ya. still have to make a trip dwn to sembawang ltr..cos its e 1yr anniv of e death of my grandma. she passed away on christmas dae, but e chinese date is 2dae...ya..sigh. i was partying on christmas eve night, n my phone went dead. so no 1 cld contact me at all...it was only when i got home, i realised she has passed away. e last time i saw her was 1 week b4 she passed away. how sad. i wasnt there when she wanted to see me for 1 last time. haiz...

i think that sums up for e moment. till i get home ltr in e night, mayb i will blog somemore.

ITS MAMBO NIGHT. i aint going. that is for sure. not even jolyn will convince me to go. so, forget it guys. dun message me to go mambo. see u guys again on CNY. trust me. ;) love ya guys. reserve that place for me.

One Cannot Force Love to Order.

monday blues..........

hey guys i'm back again! woohoo....yes monday blues. but first, updates on wat happened over e weekend...

Saturday 8/1/05:

Woke up like duno wat time. skipped weeping's bdae at east coast. so nuaed at hm till 5 b4 meeting with lester to go over to min's place for her bbq. we reached there at ard 7, ate fried rice b4 me n lester went to start e fire. it has always been me n lester...damn sick of it actually. but its ok. yeah. started e fire soon after, n realised it was 8.30...Singapore vs Indonesia. wahahahz..i skipped e bbq thingy for awhile, n stayed in frnt of e tv while waiting for ppl to serve me. in e end Singapore won 3-1. yes. i m so so so proud of thm. so, after e match, i went back dwnstairs to continue with e bbq. nothing interesting actually. juz bbq n eat n bbq n eat. thn came to e cake cutting session. right after min cut her cake, she was thrown into e pool. courtesy of me, lester n allen. :) i aint evil. yeapz. we left at ard 12? if i m not wrong. gotten a lift frm weitian who happens to b grace's bf. thanks dude. thats about wat happened on saturday. went home, washed up, n back to lala land.

Sunday 9/1/05:

i was woken up by lester's call to go out jalan jalan with him. so, i got out of bed lazily bathed n off to town we went. 2 guys walking along orchard shopping n looing at gers. basically thats bout it. lester went to get a new billabong wallet which looks damn cool. n i actually told him, if he aint buying it, i will. so in e end he bought it. after which, we went over to ps n stayed at e arcade for time to past.

went over to mr.bean for dinner. y? cos jolyn is working 2dae. so i dragged lester along to mr.bean with me. she was kinda shocked to see me though. n i was happy seeing her. after dinner, went home with lester to see him pack up b4 booking in camp. after lester went, i headed back straight to mr.bean to meet jolyn after work. along e way, i met up with gerald. so after jolyn ended her work, we headed straight over to have bean curd for supper....ZZzzZzzzz....i was practically stoning when both of thm started talking bout hamster...ZZzzZZzz....good thing it didnt last long. e initial plan was to catch chucky. n i realised i was cheated by www.yahoo.com.sg there isnt any late night shows...ZZzzZzz....hahahaz.

after gerald went off, jolyn suggested e both of us go to coffee bean. sat there, both of us had a nice chat. as usual, i has my earl grey. she had her ice mocha n we shared a plate of calamari? romantic huh? lol...she looks damn funny when trying to chew e calamari. apparently, e ring wldnt break n she was like pulling n pulling n pulling. it was hilarious. hahahaz...ok. i shall stop at this b4 she kills me e nex time i see her...as i said, we had a nice chat...enjoyed talking to her. after which, i sent her home all e way to CCK...woohoooo!!! guessed how much was e total cab fare when i got back to tpy? hmmm.... -$34.80- my most expensive cab ride ever...lalalaz. but its worth it after all...did i tell u we hand picked e new mercs cab home? hahahz...

gotten home, bathed n manage to catch jo online. chatted with her all e way till 4++++ n i went to bed at 5.30 hoping to dream of her. thats how my sunday ended. a very sweet sunday...

MONDAY! SUCKY DAY!:

woke up at 7.30. called jolyn to see if she is still sleeping. n she is on her way to sch n i m late. ironic.nvm. decided not to go training. my knee again. its really giving me problems. hurts like hell 2dae. went for maths lesson. decided to skip dgck prac n lect. so after lunch, went home, slpt till 8++ dinner. n now, i'm in frnt of e comp. n jolyn is online. 'nuff said. i think beginning frm this post, after i end everything, i will end with thought/quote/watever of e dae. so here's e 1st 1

Happiness is not a destination in which you arrive, it is your journey there.

can watch R21 shows LEGALLY!!!

hahaa..yeahz as above. i can finally watched it leagally. m i actually did watched it on fridae. but b4 that, ;emme tell u wat happened for e day.

i ended sch at 5. straightaway, rusehd dwn town to get present for weeping. gotten a t-shirt for hom frm billabong. juz a simple plain tee...after which, went home, slpt till 9++ woke up, bathed changed n everything n was bout to get ready for e party at zouk, something caught my eye. took up e invite, i started to curse n swear. e prty is for 14/1/05. its on next friday. yes. 14/1/05 no 7/1/05. i messaged gerald immediately, n he was cursing n swearing too....in e end, i still made a trip dwn to zouk. cos we decided to meet thn see how later. n sad to say, when i reached zouk, it was 10.05pm. n e entrance for it was $28 n if i came 5mins earlier, it wld b $15...wat a sharp diff....so in e end, we ended up catching a movie at ps with jena also. yeapz.

we ended up watching kinsey. lets talk bout sex. e whole show is basically talking bout human sexual behavior. its an interesting show. u guys shld catch it, provided u r of e legal age that is. if not, forget it ya. haz.

aft e movie, we decided to nua at mr.bean for some supper? thn i saw this waitress, she looks very familiar. i'm not sure if i have seen her at mambo..thn after some toughts, i told gerald she might b jolyn n she is frm my frdster. n in e end, i know wat happened? gerald asked her over n asked if she went mambo b4. but her anser was like few mths ago, so i juz asked her straight if she was jolyn. n immediately, she gave me a wide-eyed disbelief look(she looks very cute like this i swear. any guy wld have melted seeing her like this). n i juz told her i got her in my frdster list n so on..yeahz..nothing happened actually, but gerald kept disturbing her...i felt to pai seh...duno wat to sae...anyway, after she ended wrk at 6, gerald invited her to sit dwn with us n chatted for awhile. n gerald invited her to e party next week. hahahz....he was damn fast. n jolyn did agree to goin on friday, so, i guess i will b able to see her on friday again! hahaz...

thats bout it on wat happened on fridae night. juz befor hitting e bed, i wondered to myself, is it fated that we mixed up e date for e party, ended up watching kinsey at 1.30 at ps instead of some crap show at cine, thn ended up at mr.bean instead of kopitiam? thn met her? hahahz....or m i thinking too much? but 1 thing is for sure, i met her. n i think its gona b her. :)

alright. its raining super heavily now. looks like i can forget bout goin to east coast. sorry weeping. its not that i dont wan to go, u have to ask mother nature.

alright, i need to go off....suppose to meet lester...but its raining..how to go out? GrrRRrrr........nvm i shall hit e bed. so long....

finally...a new layout for e year...

hey guys. i'm back bloggin again. alright bet many of u didnt know, its actually my bdae 2dae. yeah manz...finally 21. haha..thn again, wats so great bout turning 21? not a biggie after all.

thanks to those ppl who actually did turned up on sat for e dinner at hard rock. juz wana thank u guys: joanna(thanks for e available in australia only shirt), sulin, herrick, allen, chongjin(thanks for e cigs. i was surprised though), grace + bf, diana + bf(thanks for e chocs. they were damn great), my 2 buddies, lester n melvin. n also not forgetting jascelyn n victor who came dwn all e way juz to pass me e present. thanks for e bottle. i will definately make my mark this year. well, dinner wasnt that bad. e fodd was gd, not forgetting e music.

after e dinner, we went our seperate ways, as usual, me mel n lest headed for e club. this time, we went over to chinablack for some post party. decided not to get bottles cos it was way to ex though i have cash available, but it will go to a waste considering outside is selling it way cheaper. we spent e night away dancing, drinking n fishing n pooling. i guess i m slowly in love with r&b. n as for mambo, i m still loving it. nothing can seperate me n my mambo. yeahz. mambo always comes 1st. r&b will come in next. come to think of it, i will b spending less time with mambo as tmrw night will b my last mambo. time to cut away e holiday mood n start studying. cant afford not to go to sch on thurs anymore. yeahz. so i guess, no more mambo till e next holidays. n here comes e best part. since i gt no more mambo on weds, i will b heading dwn to black on e weekends. hows that for a change huh? interesting right?

as usual, i came to a point where i do no know how to continue again. n so, i shall end this thing here.

well, its a new year guys. have a wonderful n meaningful 2005. make yr mark. n my prayers goes out to thoe affected by e tsunami. god bless.