fallen

i duno wat is happening to me. i can feel e ground below me breaking. i m sinking. i have failed in being strong. i wan to give up. i cant take it anymore. y is this happening to me. y.

why do i feel this strong of sadness in me. my heart is breaking n bleeding. do u know? i doubt u know. i aint e monster i used to b. i m defeated. defeated by this enemy called love. i cant stand up to face it anymore. i have been battered n bruised n survive before. but, today right now, i cant find e strength to fight back. i have failed.

do u know when u said u dun wan to meet me i was pretty upset. but e feeling is still quite alright. e moment i found out u went out with him, i was shattered. i was disappointed. no words can describe e feeling i have in my heart. i feel like crying out. n i almost did. its e reason that i was outside that i did not cry out. but, on my bed, i thought of e happy times we were together, tears flowed through my eyes. tears of joy that we had n tears of sadness when i do not see u both mixed n flowed out together.

i dun blame u. i blame myself. blame myself for everything. i m nothing but a fool.

-a fallen monster-