piecing my heart back together...
its e weds. n now, i still can feel e pain inside me. i have not been sleeping well since monday night.whenever i close my eyes, her face, her smile, her everything will run through my mind. all i cld was to cry n force myself to slp.
n u ppl might think wat is a 20yr old guy crying himself to sleep good for? basically good for nothing. i cldnt care less. this is e emotional side of me. all of u have seen e outside of me, but have yet to see e softer of me. n there u r. all of u have seen e brittle side of me.
i duno wat to do now. i feel myself going back to become to old me. e old porcupine. e same old touchy me. e impatient me. e cldnt-care-wat-e-world-is-doing me n e i-dont-give-a-fuck-to-u me. n yes. this is how hard i have fallen. some of u might have seen e change in me over e past few months. frm a negative side of me, i have learnt to smile more n care for ppl more. but now, all these will change. i will no longer smile as often as i want. i will stop to care for ppl anymore. i will revert back to my heck care attitude. i have given up on life. i see no direction towards it. so, i will just live by e day n wait to see wat happens tomorrow.
ppl always say, if a relationship fails, it means there is a better ger out there. i will say its bullshit. its juz nonsense to comfort e person. i have lost e confidence to love another person. i wldnt allow myself to love n to b hurt like this again. i cant take another blow.
guys r jerks. but wat bout gers? guys go ard breaking gers heart, but arent u gers guilty of doing the same thing too? everything is equal. no such thing as guys r more superior or watever shit.
oh well, i cant b bothered anymore. every minute that go past is a torture to me. cos she has yet to leave my heart. n i can still feel her beating inside me.
now, i dun think i will go to e places we went before for e time being. it will juz bring back those memories. e happy memories. but it will trigger those ter buds..
thn again, i will b working at gv plaza. how m i goin to cope with that? hopefully i dun break dwn n cry while working. those guys there sure will kana freak out...
sigh..i got no idea how m i goin to cope with this. i will try, but i cant gurantee i will succeed...cos, i have lost e will to fight. i cant carry on e battle. so, can someone pls give me the strength to fight?
n u ppl might think wat is a 20yr old guy crying himself to sleep good for? basically good for nothing. i cldnt care less. this is e emotional side of me. all of u have seen e outside of me, but have yet to see e softer of me. n there u r. all of u have seen e brittle side of me.
i duno wat to do now. i feel myself going back to become to old me. e old porcupine. e same old touchy me. e impatient me. e cldnt-care-wat-e-world-is-doing me n e i-dont-give-a-fuck-to-u me. n yes. this is how hard i have fallen. some of u might have seen e change in me over e past few months. frm a negative side of me, i have learnt to smile more n care for ppl more. but now, all these will change. i will no longer smile as often as i want. i will stop to care for ppl anymore. i will revert back to my heck care attitude. i have given up on life. i see no direction towards it. so, i will just live by e day n wait to see wat happens tomorrow.
ppl always say, if a relationship fails, it means there is a better ger out there. i will say its bullshit. its juz nonsense to comfort e person. i have lost e confidence to love another person. i wldnt allow myself to love n to b hurt like this again. i cant take another blow.
guys r jerks. but wat bout gers? guys go ard breaking gers heart, but arent u gers guilty of doing the same thing too? everything is equal. no such thing as guys r more superior or watever shit.
oh well, i cant b bothered anymore. every minute that go past is a torture to me. cos she has yet to leave my heart. n i can still feel her beating inside me.
now, i dun think i will go to e places we went before for e time being. it will juz bring back those memories. e happy memories. but it will trigger those ter buds..
thn again, i will b working at gv plaza. how m i goin to cope with that? hopefully i dun break dwn n cry while working. those guys there sure will kana freak out...
sigh..i got no idea how m i goin to cope with this. i will try, but i cant gurantee i will succeed...cos, i have lost e will to fight. i cant carry on e battle. so, can someone pls give me the strength to fight?
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